My traumatic past.

2021.12.03 22:03 sebeast7 My traumatic past.

My girlfriend was also 14 at the time and I was 16. Her mother had been an addict her whole life. her father as well. they used in the house, sold, manufactured, and a lot of other crimes. Reading her CPS reports made my skin crawl. One distinct report stated “she was found in a house with used female products in the floor, needles, drugs, and basically everything a crack den usually includes. Dating her I stayed in her house a lot, cause she was living with her grandma at the time we met. one day, her mom came out of the blue, she took a train from texas to surprise us. She seemed nice enough, we knew she was still using, but we didn’t mind because we did drugs too (not the ones she did but frequent weed use and ocasional mdma, cocaine, etc.) she was hep C positive and refused her meds. She forced me to drive her to the liquor store every day. she cut herself in front of us. I remember my girlfriend hugging her, when her mother got a peace of broken glass and slashed her wrists. I was mortified, but used to it. I was so in love I thought these things were normal. at the time I sold drugs and would frequently spend time at a meth house that my friends dad owned. I never minded the bad vibes cause I didn’t really care. again, I thought it was normal. keep in mind that at this time, my parents lived in there current 3 story beautiful house. they didn’t know what I was doing. both worked in the hospital and figured since my grades and attendance in school were good they’d let me be a bit independent. they loved my girlfriend because she was sweet and they trusted me that I wasn’t getting too involved with her home life. when I stayed the nights at her house they thought I was somewhere else. anyway, her mothers drug abuse and self harm continued. I recall her having several boyfriends come in and out of the house frequently. One of them was a guy with a bit of brain damage from past drug use. he was very irrational and would hit her. one day he got so pissed with her that he broke the window and tried to push her out of it. the window still isn’t fixed. Another boyfriend stuck his hand down her throat and attempted to suffocate her. That night the police were called by a neighbor, but we hid her mom in another room due to a warrant she had. Seeing all these things gave me severe trauma, but I was blinded by love. Her mom was verbally abusive to me. she called me an idiot and told me I was going to be an addict. she stole from me, one time she even ATE my weed because she got mad that I wouldn’t give any to her (she’s an addict she doesn’t need more drugs). I may have used drugs occasionally, but I was no where near addict status. I liked to experiment. One of her boyfriends owned a trailer not far from the house. We visited frequently to pick up her mom or just hang out (again, blinded by loved). One night I went to hangout with some friends, and she told me that she was staying the night with her mom at his trailer. I was freaked out, because the guy wasn’t someone you’d want a 14 year old staying with. the worst part was that her best friends, someone I considered my little sister (12 yr) was staying too. I let it go and figured they’d do whatever the fuck they wanted. I never heard what happened that night, but a few weeks later I was told the man was a sex offender, so I can’t imagine anything good happened. Her dad was in jail at the time. he got locked up for manufacturing and selling drugs. Him and her mom somehow obtained a prescription machine (idk how it worked back then, this was before the crack down on opioids). they ended up getting busted after the crack down and sent to jail. She got out early and commuted more crimes but ran from warrants. He’s still in jail to this day, but he got out for a bit last year, then sent back. They told me that they knew he had killed someone. My girlfriends mom had a friend that went missing one day. she knew that her husband had a problem with the friend, and had mentioned his desire to harm her. They even found the best friends jacket in their car a few days after she was killed. He denies everything but the clues are pretty obvious. I spoke with him over the phone a few times when he called my girl. He was always nice to me. he was a white supremacy gang member as well. we live in east tennesee so there’s a lot of that. he didn’t know that I was hispanic. When we broke up, she even called me and told me that her new boyfriend (a black guy) met her dad while he was out of prison for the short time. Her dad got one look of the kid and started making monkey noises and saying the N word. Disgusting, right? Anyway, after all this I ended up realizing this wasn’t right. she broke up with me, and I spent a year trying to get her back cause I forgot how much trauma I had. To this day we speak every once in a while, but i’ll never go back to that life. This was a very rough part of my life and i’ll never forget it. i’m honestly thankful it happened because it taught me more than most people will ever know. i became an adult because of it. I’ve never told anyone the extent of my story, but now you guys know. DO WHATS RIGHT FOR YOU. don’t attempt to save her. help is fine, but only to the extent you don’t take in her problems. I know this advice isn’t the best, but from what I experienced, all I can say is stay away from the trauma of others. you’ll thank me.
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2021.12.03 22:03 adrianmarco Maryland homeowners burned down their home while attempting to rid the house of snakes

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2021.12.03 22:03 flipzone Knorr Granulated Tomato Chicken Bouillon Flavour (40 Oz.), 1.14 Kilogram $21.71 (lowest)

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2021.12.03 22:03 mysterious_mouse1111 I'm Extremely Sorry.

As a Pakistani, I'm extremely Sorry for what happened to your Sri-Lankan brother here. I've no words. May his soul rest in peace. I haven't slept for a minute, I can't unsee those images. I can understand what his family must be going through. I can totally feel their pain. Living as a shia muslim in this country, we have faced enough, from target killing to receiving dead bodies in pieces, we've seen it all. Sending lots of love and healing to you all.
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2021.12.03 22:03 roadhoggin LF: Aprimons FT: Pokerus, friend ball bagon

Just what the title says!
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2021.12.03 22:03 MamaMagalionne Help regarding the Razor Crest

So is the razor crest retiring at the end of the year? Or is it until the next year? I need to know because I’ve been investigating for an hour and a half and I have only found mixed answers. I just wanna have the info clear to see if I buy for it Christmas or just wait till next year. thanks!
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2021.12.03 22:03 diabloPoE12 Devotion is such a cheat code in Arenas

**omg no one cares about arenas**
Well I actually like playing it. But the purple devotion is so OP given how it's an arena shooter format. It's like allowing someone to buy a power weapon in Halo. Just remove the gun entirely from the mode. The modes don't have to match 100% in terms of weapons.
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2021.12.03 22:03 Meechy6 [For hire] Custom sneakers / clothing/ canvases available for $150-200

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2021.12.03 22:03 crapforbrains553 instead of lettuce, get poison ivy leafs on your burger

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2021.12.03 22:03 NonExzistantRed Am I the only one who thinks this?

If you marry someone then their now a part of your family, which means marriage is just a way to make incest not weird.
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2021.12.03 22:03 DaRealMenace97 New episode is out! I get to see my girl kick butt again in Cod Vanguard Campaign!

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2021.12.03 22:03 Alternative-Delay714 I don't know this freaked me out...

I don't know why this thought came to me and kinda freaked me out for a second...What if when or if losing your ability to write things, or speak words properly is not really a bad thing. What if writing and talking were really developed as a way of controlling people(Don't Roll Your Eyes). What if we were originally suppose/ use to be able to communicate telepathically to one another rather then writing and speaking. But as time carried on people in higher power decided they couldn't control the people properly if they couldn't really know what's on or what being said, or they could possibly put up mental block so they couldn't know about rebellion ext. So they deem the ability or originally line of communication demonic or other worldy to scare people from using it. And now boom here we are as human with this epic gift we can't use unless spiritual awakened. Because think about it most practices say the main line of communication with your God and or goddess or animal whatever it maybe is through prayer ( talking in your mind to them). I'm just say🤷🏾‍♀️. What's your thoughts though?
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2021.12.03 22:03 Kavipz23 Chloe's Togepi Impression Is Too Cute

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2021.12.03 22:03 NubZz_Knees Class balance

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2021.12.03 22:03 NoSwimmer8914 My Recruiter is Fu*cking Me

Background Information- I scored a 92 on the ASVAB. I’m technically homeless and a few years ago, my mother used my name and put me in debt ($20,000)
After receiving my score, I did research on various rates and chose to join the Navy. The Nuke program, while intensive, seemed like it would dramatically improve my situation while in the military and after. I was upfront about my situation with my recruiters and they ensured me multiple times that my situation would not be a problem and I was guaranteed to be a Nuke. I’ve been disputing the credit charges for years and it seemed that the charges where lifted off 2 out of 3 of the credit bureaus. I honestly didn’t know how to check the last credit bureau and I voiced my concerns throughout the enlistment process, but they immediately brushed me off and they reassured me that everything will be fine. (I would like to point out that they did an “extensive check” on my behalf and told me everything was fine. I’m pretty sure that was bullsh*t). They told me when I get to MEPS to chose any rate because it didn’t matter because I will be Nuke anyways. The liaison ended up choosing for me and didn’t let me pick any Intel rates because my recruiter told him that it “will be hard to switch over to Nuke” if I did that. So, he only presented one rate which was (AECF).
Days later, I’m informed that my Nuke application was flagged because of my debt. (Important- I was currently disputing these accounts because I didn’t make these charges.) My recruiter said all I had to do was call each company and start making payments and everything should be good to go. By calling these companies, I forgo my right to dispute the debt and I’m taking full ownership. That was fine to me because I believed it would pay off in the long run and I could use the bonus.
My application was flagged again because it surpassed the $10,000 threshold. At this point, it’s clear that they’re either withholding information or they’re incompetent because if I KNOWN there was even a threshold requirement, I wouldn’t have risked assuming the debt. The Nuke application went from being “Guaranteed” to “maybe?” From now until the time I eventually ship, I’m going to struggling immensely. That’s an extra $600 a month in payments. I even thought about selling my car to keep up with the payments, but that would only cause more problems. I informed the person I’m staying with so, he could extend my deadline. But in his perspective, since I have a history of getting fcked over numerous times by putting too much trust in people, he believes I’m self sabotaging. Which isn’t the case. I really put all my trust into these people and they’re playing with my life like this sht is a game. They are fcking me. Like a “clean that sht up, your Uber is waiting outside” type of fu*king.
I’ve acknowledged there’s nothing I can do and I concocted alternative solutions, but I’m beyond frustrated. You really can’t trust anyone these days. It’s my fault for not being more assertive.
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2021.12.03 22:03 ysaintbas Remote Control, but if it was in Yandhi

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2021.12.03 22:03 cmhawkes Steelix 1084 5714 6799 don't back out be ready, if 5 seconds before there is not atleast 5 then backout.

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2021.12.03 22:03 Mulchon A lot of people's said "Taliban isn't the real Islam, it's radical, Islam is peace religion!" What do you think about it?

Isn't every action based on the Quran and Hadith?
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2021.12.03 22:03 Idk_gamer_yt Why the fuck do people keep calling my choker a dog collar?

Like it's not even fucking close to a dog collar, it's way thinner than a dog collar and it's not even made of the same material as a dog collar and there's NO ring for a leash on it.
I'm so fucking tired of it and i also don't want another 20 year old guy sexualizing it either ffs.
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2021.12.03 22:03 RoomFlimsy3277 Doge🐕Bonk 🏏 - We are the anti-meme dog, meme dog token. Contract Renounced / LP Burned / 🔥BURN wallet 🔥

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2021.12.03 22:03 UnknownUltimateAlt I'm back after a month, finally came along and read Kurumi's and Meido's Chapters and Conflicts. Hope y'all enjoy!

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2021.12.03 22:03 throwaway-429 How do I turn a HTTP Nginx Reverse Proxy to HTTPS with SSL

How to turn HTTP Nginx reverse proxy into HTTPS
I already have a Nginx reverse proxy setup with a name cheap domain and cloudflare. It’s currently redirecting my server web apps to my domain/subdomains in HTTP. I want to setup https with SSL on all my domains but I’ve tried multiple times already and failed, from cloudflare origin cert to caddy. Can someone help me get through this or even send links to guides on exactly this. Now for a few a questions:

  1. Do I have to add stuff to my docker-compose files when switching to HTTPS?
  2. Can I use https on my own network without exposing it? (port forwarding)
  3. Should I use certbot or the certs from cloudflare?
  4. Do I even need https when I won’t portforward and only use it for watching anime on Jellyfin?
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2021.12.03 22:03 watergate3000 Last round in The Gem City

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2021.12.03 22:03 MarinaKD29 The most unpleasant ships

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2021.12.03 22:03 DragonsBane80 Reshiram on me 6212 8146 6897

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